Ambitious for Love in California
May 23rd, 2026, 1:34 pm
I met Sandy from Sherman Oaks, delighted that her name was nautical - a small link to my other world - Sandy. I knew Sandy, but she didn’t know me; she had been my girlfriend in high school in the future pirate kingdom - now, she didn’t know me - I was a stranger to her, and I could tell she half-feared me, like she didn’t know who I was…and how safe of a human I might be.
Her instinct told her I was good.
Her emotions told her I was good.
But that was just because I was able to be myself
Express myself more comfortable the more time we spent together;
The way she reacted to almost everything I said make me feel pathetically validated
Like I had been ignored my whole life
The greatness within me
At least recognized by someone
I wasn’t sure if were for each other yet though
When you pick someone to be in your story
It’s quite the investment - a story is an investment
And picked someone to share your life with you is a very serious undertaking
I told her I had fallen for a pretty girl before
And that I had been lonely for a long time
That was my lesson
And I didn’t want it to happen again.
“That’s kind of like me,” she said. “He was good-looking, rich - but a douche - not a nice guy at all.”
“The illusion is the lesson,” I say. “It’s so fascinating the way God creates our stories - we participate in the formation of our own narratives through our choices.”
“You keep talking about God,” she says. “How come?”
“I’m God’s Dog,” I tell her. “He conditioned me to be who I am through my story.”
“How do you know it’s God?”
“I studied literary theory,” I tell her. “We’re an algorithm in a body, reacting to an environment as a character who is being reacted to in a story with scenes by ourselves and with others. Our monologue is programmed by those around us and the media - any information the enters our scanner.”
“And what does that have to do with God?”
“That means there is an Author,” I explain. “An author who communicates with us through our experience — which we must decipher - we are not literate about our own lives, and the meaning of what we do. The corporate media is ruining the human experience because they’re trying to monetize the real story - the one that helps everyone find themselves and discover a role in a community that begins with their family — that’s the narrative that the corporations are hiding - they want to break families - that’s the strategy - divide and conquer all by telling everyone they’re different, make them feel afraid and unsafe - when, in reality — it’s a strategy to make the people in this system, the voters, afraid enough to vote for their corporate-endorsed candidates - America is about freedom - and it’s time for capitalism to evolve into local prosperity.”